Seriously. The show I Used To Be Fat is super inspirational. These transformations are incredible.

Absence.

Well, here we are again. Just over two weeks into the new year and I’m slacking already.. ok, I’m not slacking - I’ve been in a slump. The truth is that I have been slightly depressed and day by day my depression greatly affects my eating habits. 

I either eat entirely too much, or entirely too little. And that makes for bad times to track. Because I don’t want to put out here what I’m doing when I’m doing that because this blog is about doing it the HEALTHY way. It’s about working your ass off (literally), eating right, and feeling good about yourself. The only part of that equation that I’ve managed to live up to the past week or so is the first part. 

Some of it is body image that has me down. Some of it work, most of it money and time. 

So. I’m coming to terms about some things. that even after I lose the weight that I’m trying so desperately to drop - may not change

1. My thighs touch. They have. Since I’ve been like, fourteen. I was only a size 8 then. And they touched. I hate it. I need to embrace it
2. I have muffin tops/love handles what ever the hell you want to call them. You know what I’m talking about. I have them. 
3. Stretch marks. The only thing that I will embrace about the stretch marks once I drop weight is that they will be a reminder of the past and something that I can look to when I start having constant cravings. Or wanting to go back to old lifestyle ways.

This is me. I need to come to terms with it

For some reason I can’t get fatsecret.com to load on my computer for me. Fail.

I’ll try again tomorrow. :) 

This last week has noooot been a good week for me. Snowed in, so no grocery shopping. Snowed in, so no running. Working overnights. Not my best healthy week, but I’ll make up for it. School starts the 24th, and when I have that regularity in my life, it’ll be way easier to do good food and exercise. Also, our theme looks HORRIBLE in IE. But then, what doesn’t?

Football!

Anyone watching the games today? Who are you guys rooting for? 

Foodie Foodie Foodie!

So, I was bad. I didn’t eat breakfast yesterday. I know that is horrible. But it happened.. I also went over my calorie intake by 190. Adrian got home from Maine and wanted Chick-Fil-A for dinner - right before we went. Had I known that earlier I would have planned my meals accordingly. 

Eff you snow. I can’t go grocery shopping if you’re falling. All I have here to eat are eggs and I’m already tired of them. They’re not even HEALTHY!